At home on a rainy day.
Nice.
Except my brother made me feel all emo.
Talked to him on facebook earlier on
about mum and dad.. It was nice.
I'm glad we both made a decision.
Yes! Finally someone on my side wheeeeeee.

To me I think I'm mature for my age
(yea hahaha i do stop mocking me)
But then when my brother asked me about some stuff...
Made me think a lot.
He said if you love someone even if that
person was a murderer you'd still love him.
I'm like NO WAY MAN.. I'm not God..

If the person I love hurt me, why should I continue the relationship?
Isn't he supposed to love me enough to not hurt me?
If he hurts me, doesn't it mean that he doesn't love me enough
to want to protect me?

Not that i'll end it on a sour note, more like friends.
Just that I don't want to be in
such a close relationship with that person.
In case he hurt me again.
Even if I loved him,
I'd choose to let go.
Even if I loved him a lot.
I'd still let go.

But my brother says that's all bull if you really love the person.
and that "my time will come" when I will be able to comprehend all this...
uncommon sense and ridiculous way of thinking.

But is it really true?

Maybe I'm more of a practical than a
"omg I will follow you to the end of the earth because ILY"
Say all you want,
but I REALLY do not believe in a relationship where one party
destroys the other. Its not nice, its not fair, and it isn't LOVE.
IT ACTUALLY HURTS THE OTHER PARTY. LOVE OR NO LOVE.

Not saying that there won't be conflicts along the way,
but if both are willing to sort it out and try to not repeat the same thing
i'm all for it..

BUT if its like "yes i will change for you, believe me" and then
go do the exact same thing again, then NO TYVM.
Plus I really dislike this
changing for another person krap.
You change because it'll make you
a better person, and in turn make other people around you happier
because you have improved.
Changing just to appease someone will never work.
Maybe it will short term, but most likely not long term.

why am I ranting so?
No idea. Must be the rain. :)

Anway,
all i'm trying to say is,
I'm still figuring out the
"matured way of thinking"
which I find rather childish.
Because there ain't no benefits.
You just become miserable.

Ok now no one wants to marry me.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
yea like i care because i am 18. 8)